Okay I have decided to blog today as recently I have been truly humbled by god and his love for everyone. Truly, even in my life or the people around me I truly see god’s presence in the tiny things of life. Let me start of by saying, my faith journey for the couple of weeks haven’t been at a high point but more likely the lowest it could be. I did something about 2 weeks back and thereafter I felt that the usual feeling I have, the sense of security and the presence of god around me missing, my body felt emptiness never felt before and my heart ached. There were days I would just lie in bed wondering if god will ever love me. True enough in my emptiness I have learnt many things.
Throughout my 2 weeks I have had god guiding me in a different way, not the usual presence and security I would feel but just different. It was through people, people whom I love & even those who I don’t really love. The people gods sent me this year for my faith journey are people who I have never expected to be close with. I have had interesting walks home after school where I truly see god’s presence when I think about it now, the conversations and the motivation god was giving me through that friend. I also had very difficult moments where the devil tempted me not to sin but to just give up on god, just give up on my faith and as my friend would say ” fall for the things of the world” And yeah , it was extremely painful and agonizing at times. But throughout all this I realize not so long ago that my emptiness and that insecurity was just a way god wanted me to be filled and to just surrender.
I haven’t been filled yet but I am learning to surrender. I am saying I learning to surrender because I know it am not 100% yet but I am getting there and I know it. I have sinned in the 2 weeks for sure but recently I have controlled and I have declined the devil but this was only possible because of god’s true grace. On Ascension I went to church earlier to go for ado and I did. During ado, I prayed and I pleaded god to be that shepherd of my life, to be that person who will be that guiding hand. And now, whenever I am tempted by sin, I make sure I will not fall because of my desire for god. However, I know in time to come I will be bound to fall but the great thing is that now even if I fall my desire for god will only increase and not decrease. I believe that god carried me this far and that is why I felt that sense of security and that feeling of fullness but now god has this rope around me and he is holding on to that rope as tight as he possibly can and he is running in front with it wanting me to chase him and in that way to yearn and to desire for him and truly go deeper.
Lastly, before I end my post I just want to say never give up hope especially at your driest points of your spiritual journey because at the end there is always a reward. I will just end of with the verse which is very relevant to me now.
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.
Psalm 23.1
GRE. tellu sth.
FRIENDSHIP are like stars. YOU don't always see them but you know They're always there.
No matter how the world against you, you have to LOVE urself no matter what happen.
You must always rememeber ;D God bless.
Mid Week ...stress
Yo, Wat a week I am having...This week has been the most depressing and upsetting weeks. My heart feels so heavy and my head feels so jumbled. “When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze at the stars for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal!” that a quote I think applies to me a lot. I should not bow my head in sadness and in sorrow but gaze up high looking and knowing that my heart will heal......my sorrows and misery will finally have an end and radical change. The value you love is greater than none other... that was how my day was at the start till the afternoon. In the afternoon it became worst and the situation grew bigger...I thought I will lose friendship I will not want to lose and I knew if I lose that valuable friendship I wouldn’t be able to bear the sharp pains piercing through my hearts...Life is a experience and sadness...happiness...excitement are just to make life more tasteful.... experienced that today. I realize friendship is really the key... and friends are never to ight for stupid things. This post may sound emo but it is in a way but not fully because it really made me appreciate many things in my life again. Greg
Hello, Okay I haven't been posting/blogging for a period of time due to lack of time>I have been extremely busy with school and stuff.>I had a great holy week. Maundy Thursday was great. It was actually a great help as I could pray well’s thought I actually connected with god quite well. Good Friday was great and Holy Saturday was a great touch with the Easter vigil. Really rocked. Then Easter Sunday and tithe family gathering was supeerb. Holy week has been a great experience that has allowed me to learn a lot and understand myself better. Now after the long weekend that I looked so much for is about to end in a few minutes...I get back on with my busy life aagain. Hiaz
Greg
Hi guys, Okay, so I had quite a good day accept that I was kind of sick in the afternoon. After SLC duty when our SLC recess I ate too fast and I was swallowing everything trying to rush back to class and due to that I had a really bad head ache and vomiting but after I puked like 4 to 5 times and drank water it was better. Anyways today also changed my e z link card to the new one and I was really angry with the school because they put my primary school photo and that photo was taken when I was sick so it’s a really ugly picture but yeah. So btw then the best high light for today was my Nafa 2.4 when I actually got achieved the timing of 11 minutes 35 seconds and I was extremely happy that I have improved and at least it was a good part. The motivation was there today when I ran and I ran with Wayne and Aaron and I think we did a pretty good job so yeah. Then that’s about it ....I am very excited for tommmrow because it a new day, a very special day and most of all it’s a new month. I guess you will know why it is special when I blog tomro. Rock on guys
Greg. :)
Dedications
Okay....
Firstly,
Theodore Craig: Hey Teo had a great time going for the investiture with you. It was nice talking to you and getting to know you more. Good job and one day all the efforts you want to put it and contribute will surely succeed and your ideas are cool. Trust in you man ...takes care and you rock :)
Aaron: Hey, thanks a lot for doing up my blog for me....I like it and yeah thank a lot. Haha so far it has already gotten compliments. Thank You :)
Ian Lim: Hey, Thanks so much, even though I was upset during recess you tried cheering me up and yeah even though I didn't cheer up right away it really helped and I appreciate it. Take care and stay that way always :)
That’s all the dedications for today :)
The Lord is my shepherd =)
Hi Everyone =)
Okay I have decided to blog today as recently I have been truly humbled by god and his love for everyone. Truly, even in my life or the people around me I truly see god’s presence in the tiny things of life. Let me start of by saying, my faith journey for the couple of weeks haven’t been at a high point but more likely the lowest it could be. I did something about 2 weeks back and thereafter I felt that the usual feeling I have, the sense of security and the presence of god around me missing, my body felt emptiness never felt before and my heart ached. There were days I would just lie in bed wondering if god will ever love me. True enough in my emptiness I have learnt many things.
Throughout my 2 weeks I have had god guiding me in a different way, not the usual presence and security I would feel but just different. It was through people, people whom I love & even those who I don’t really love. The people gods sent me this year for my faith journey are people who I have never expected to be close with. I have had interesting walks home after school where I truly see god’s presence when I think about it now, the conversations and the motivation god was giving me through that friend. I also had very difficult moments where the devil tempted me not to sin but to just give up on god, just give up on my faith and as my friend would say ” fall for the things of the world” And yeah , it was extremely painful and agonizing at times. But throughout all this I realize not so long ago that my emptiness and that insecurity was just a way god wanted me to be filled and to just surrender.
I haven’t been filled yet but I am learning to surrender. I am saying I learning to surrender because I know it am not 100% yet but I am getting there and I know it. I have sinned in the 2 weeks for sure but recently I have controlled and I have declined the devil but this was only possible because of god’s true grace. On Ascension I went to church earlier to go for ado and I did. During ado, I prayed and I pleaded god to be that shepherd of my life, to be that person who will be that guiding hand. And now, whenever I am tempted by sin, I make sure I will not fall because of my desire for god. However, I know in time to come I will be bound to fall but the great thing is that now even if I fall my desire for god will only increase and not decrease. I believe that god carried me this far and that is why I felt that sense of security and that feeling of fullness but now god has this rope around me and he is holding on to that rope as tight as he possibly can and he is running in front with it wanting me to chase him and in that way to yearn and to desire for him and truly go deeper.
Lastly, before I end my post I just want to say never give up hope especially at your driest points of your spiritual journey because at the end there is always a reward. I will just end of with the verse which is very relevant to me now.
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.
Psalm 23.1
GRE. tellu sth.
FRIENDSHIP are like stars. YOU don't always see them but you know They're always there.
No matter how the world against you, you have to LOVE urself no matter what happen.
You must always rememeber ;D God bless.
Mid Week ...stress
Yo, Wat a week I am having...This week has been the most depressing and upsetting weeks. My heart feels so heavy and my head feels so jumbled. “When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead keep your head up high and gaze at the stars for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal!” that a quote I think applies to me a lot. I should not bow my head in sadness and in sorrow but gaze up high looking and knowing that my heart will heal......my sorrows and misery will finally have an end and radical change. The value you love is greater than none other... that was how my day was at the start till the afternoon. In the afternoon it became worst and the situation grew bigger...I thought I will lose friendship I will not want to lose and I knew if I lose that valuable friendship I wouldn’t be able to bear the sharp pains piercing through my hearts...Life is a experience and sadness...happiness...excitement are just to make life more tasteful.... experienced that today. I realize friendship is really the key... and friends are never to ight for stupid things. This post may sound emo but it is in a way but not fully because it really made me appreciate many things in my life again. Greg
Hello, Okay I haven't been posting/blogging for a period of time due to lack of time>I have been extremely busy with school and stuff.>I had a great holy week. Maundy Thursday was great. It was actually a great help as I could pray well’s thought I actually connected with god quite well. Good Friday was great and Holy Saturday was a great touch with the Easter vigil. Really rocked. Then Easter Sunday and tithe family gathering was supeerb. Holy week has been a great experience that has allowed me to learn a lot and understand myself better. Now after the long weekend that I looked so much for is about to end in a few minutes...I get back on with my busy life aagain. Hiaz
Greg
Hi guys, Okay, so I had quite a good day accept that I was kind of sick in the afternoon. After SLC duty when our SLC recess I ate too fast and I was swallowing everything trying to rush back to class and due to that I had a really bad head ache and vomiting but after I puked like 4 to 5 times and drank water it was better. Anyways today also changed my e z link card to the new one and I was really angry with the school because they put my primary school photo and that photo was taken when I was sick so it’s a really ugly picture but yeah. So btw then the best high light for today was my Nafa 2.4 when I actually got achieved the timing of 11 minutes 35 seconds and I was extremely happy that I have improved and at least it was a good part. The motivation was there today when I ran and I ran with Wayne and Aaron and I think we did a pretty good job so yeah. Then that’s about it ....I am very excited for tommmrow because it a new day, a very special day and most of all it’s a new month. I guess you will know why it is special when I blog tomro. Rock on guys
Greg. :)
Dedications
Okay....
Firstly,
Theodore Craig: Hey Teo had a great time going for the investiture with you. It was nice talking to you and getting to know you more. Good job and one day all the efforts you want to put it and contribute will surely succeed and your ideas are cool. Trust in you man ...takes care and you rock :)
Aaron: Hey, thanks a lot for doing up my blog for me....I like it and yeah thank a lot. Haha so far it has already gotten compliments. Thank You :)
Ian Lim: Hey, Thanks so much, even though I was upset during recess you tried cheering me up and yeah even though I didn't cheer up right away it really helped and I appreciate it. Take care and stay that way always :)
Mugging it out at St Gabriel's Sec Sch
I (L) God
SFX makes me high!
Cause she's been there for me, now i smile
I think of life as a story, that unfolds day by day
She means more to me than everyone, even myself
Sometimes i wish i had said those words
But baby it's never to late
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